favorite websites

http://hacknmod.com/
http://hackaday.com/
http://www.live365.com/stations/deathguild

youtube
facebook

http://sfbay.craigslist.org/sby/cto/1398758315.html

1991 Toyota Corolla - $650 (san jose east)
Date: 2009-09-29, 3:51PM PDTReply to: sale-me3he-1398758315@craigslist.org [Errors when replying to ads?]
91 TOYOTA COROLLA, 4 DOOR, MAROON OLOR, AUTOMATIC, 189,000 MILES, CURRENTLY REGISTRERED UNTIL JUNE 2010, GREAT ON GAS. VERY ECONOMIC.. NEEDS FRONT RTGHT BEARINGS GREASED.. CALL 408-506-9230

what is the one thing i want
or what are the things i want?
some friends (since i am in the library and see all the little kiddies playing aroudn with eachother) but it isnt that hard to do.
i think when i do hang out with my friends, i think about "the kids from the library" and want to be in that exact situation. even though my friends are the situation.
i think i am training myself to want to be a little kid again (or how those kids at the library are)

what could i do?
look for a car and buy it. (police confiscated or craigslist)
join auto shop.
join rops
join navy
join americorps

get a gun and shoot it.

what could i do that is fun and wastes time?
browse the web and listen to music at the same time

but i want to be able to download the songs that i find are interesting. fuck

let me try to understand another part of myself. I am depressed. I am trying to read nietzsche’s antichrist, but im having trouble because it soes not look like it targets what problems I have. Part 7 made me think – but I have forgotten what I thought so I will read some more. I do have a vague idea of what I was thinking but I will retrace the ideas before I type. (“but they do not say “nonentity,” they say “beyond,” or “god,” or “the true life”; or nirvana or salvation or blessedness instead. This innocent thetoric, which belongs to the realm…”) I embrace nonentity. It makes me depressed. I am pessimistic. I like being that way, but it leads to sadness frequently.
I have a fear that at one point in life, there will be a “switch” in my mind that will be flipped, where I will convert wholey to a religion (likely what I originally was, catholic) and become a zealot of them. A grunt of religious warfare. I hope it wont happen.
And I have said this before. At least I will be able to more easily remind myself of my fears with facebook. Thank you facebook

why does tsunadehave a flat chest?

waas this posted somewhere else?...

i like how the bird has 3 legs in ep 131 and how jiraiya runs around on his kogs and how he does a head and foot seal

why would pain be beneath the akatsuki master? the sage of six paths could do anything?. and the sharingan guy can only copy ninjitsu, but not master the five elements. so sharingan sucks compared to rinnegan. god damn why does it make nos ense? and im surprised that jiraiya can make a massive rasengan. it looks awesome. and better than narutos uube or uudon rasengan. AWESOME

also, i was watching the new naruto episodes in english and they remind me of the jackie chan adventures, but with creepy voices for all the old people. terrible dubbing

i wish there was peripheral vision for video games

i keep having dreams about my mom. its annoying as hell. as heaven. fuck my mind. fuck you, fuck you mind. it happened twice around a week ago. one about my moms nipple and me looking at it/ feeling it, then one about me trying to finger her but she didnt want to so i fingered her asshole. i have a great imagination. im thinking those are two seperate dreams, but i might be missing one.
there was one other thing that i forgot about. what was it...
i sprained my ankle. i was wondering if there is anyone else that skateboards to work, and if there is a set of rules of ways you are not allowed to skateboard. i used dress shoes, and those shoes fucked me over.

i WILL JOIN THE army, actaully AIRFORCE. though it will take around 3 months for me to go in. im gonna procrastinate. but because i already have procrastinated for four years, it is the only option where someone will decide what i will do. if i do not join, i will stay the same place i am in and just work at safeway and fuck around with computers and videogames. my mind is fading away slowly, and will fade away faster if i am in the airforce. but the airforce will lead to some accomplishment.