Tuesday, May 11, 2010

maybe should watch


Logitech G13 Programmable Gameboard with LCD Display


https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B000BQN09Q/ref=as_li_qf_sp_asin_il_tl?ie=UTF8&tag=dans0fe-20&camp=1789&creative=9325&linkCode=as2&creativeASIN=B000BQN09Q&linkId=0ddf62d7d643c91dda2063b5b3f6bf6e


alibaba.com
MARRY A MEXICAN. and use them for work or fuck them. or deport them. d does not fucking work on this computer.

http://sfbay.craigslist.org/nby/cto/1726465272.html

=( i had lots of dreams. first are random. i dreampt i was making out with whatshername alice from work. then night later dreampt about my mom???? but she had tits like the porn star uhh. cant look it up right now dam =( was on a slide... then had a nightmare about mom ripping up the sprinklers i put in and felt bad.
then dreampt 3 times about emily after i argued with her. she said she loved me =( i feel pretty bad. and am having a hard time diverting my attention to something else.

books:
enders game
snow crash
animal farm
cold mountain

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

166-2 Taillight Assy - Pricd Up To Car $34.99 to 25


http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=789828153 giovanni

http://www.pandora.com/music/song/kolombo/sniff


http://www.facebook.com/Lawle 
best pictures ever

If you really want to be a jerk, get a Crown Vic and drive 5 under the limit on the freeway. Nobody will want to pass you.

http://sfbay.craigslist.org/eby/cto/1712395186.html delete
http://sfbay.craigslist.org/eby/ctd/1705761089.html delete
http://sfbay.craigslist.org/pen/cto/1716475105.html
http://sfbay.craigslist.org/sfc/cto/1711977386.html

i want to buy a empty lot, put a big shed, and park shit cars in there. that is my dream
http://www.realtor.com/realestateandhomes-detail/1315-Court_Salton-City_CA_1117562652

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

ive got a mental wall. i cant find reason to talk to any girls i kinda like. =( oh no. and also my memory is fading. i do not thinki  can remember what life was like in the fifth grade. the memory is leaving =(


KMHDN45D13U581233

the wheel is turning, but the hampster is dead. photographic memory with the lens glued on. most people drink from the fountain of youth. i like to gargle.

http://www.pandora.com/music/song/john+digweed/emico+joel+mull

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

naruto

153 is around 414 =( i cant find out the manga that shows what jiraiya was saying.
u just found out that hp/tonne is for acceleration, and pure hp is for top speed =( lotus=340/ton corvette=317.610063. lotus top speed 150 hp=177 corvette top speed 205 hp=604

http://www.kongregate.com/games/glimajr/continuity
continuity is the hardest game ever. it got boring after one hour. =( nice music though
multiple meatwad is awesome on athf aquateen hunger force.
and then tim and eric awesome show ep: stuntmen girl is hot.

im on the computer again at night. i conlclude that i wasted the time until now. i konw that i feel different at the start of the night. i just do what i feel. feeling is bad. =(

132 is fucking shit again. nothing happens. naruto just fucking doing one punches to people. and the whole city is destroyed. everyone should be dead. but they are not.

Friday, March 12, 2010

my mind feels fragile

i just realized that the thing thats something like "the repetitive task experiment" does determine what you like. the first time you are doing something pointless, if your brain decides that you like it, you will forever like it. it is decided by chance.
also, it would be nice if i could make 2 videos. one of a turbo on a 50 hp car going up a hill. the release valve sound would be funny. 2] use the cowabunga song or that vibrating ball song for a grandma cart with a turbo. and put flames on the back. using wd40 and a lighter.

i got a fucking ticket. fuck does not matter. what do i think. why?. studying is not about what you like to study. you need to do things that you dont usually do. the thought needs to be different.
so i got a ticket. it doesnt matter. its not much compared to the 200$ parking tickets. i think that giving money to the state is a waste. i dont owe them anything. their crappy systems owe being fixed. there is no reason to donate to that shit. fuck it.
what i could have done is talk to the officer. if i found out who the officer was. i could find the history of the officer and blackmail him. maybe it doesnt work like that with school officers.
my mental response was wrong. i felt bad. i felt depressed. it triggered by itself.
im bored. what is worth doing? ive already worked my heart. how about working my brain. or spirit. but fuck my soul. i dont care about soul. i forgot about my general bodies health, like my dick or back or neck. and i skipped the digestive health.
HOW ABOUT THAT HOT GIRL THAT GOES TO THE LEARNING LAB THING?

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

digital paper

drive old ladies around for car. [or living space]
castro gisel bernard gisel[wtf? bernard ohh, wait its for taking care of bernard]
model school clean room to drive
i wonder what it owuld be like to convertamy idaeds into action and live without regret. i want to move to japan

Monday, March 1, 2010

Attitudes:
of environment
of vivian
of doctor
1introduction
2summary
3conclusion
how does movie correlate to college success

NEW who, name, title
what they do
summary of what they said
what do you think, if it was a waste of time. critical thinking, conclusion
conclusion says what you truly think, the deep opinion.
daniel powers
beverly muse and liz llamas
Bev is a relationship counseler at skyline college

i think that this correlates to college success because people need to have control of what they think and feel. peoples actions are usually randomly learned, where the pattern and habit is kept, no matter if the habit is good or bad. counseling is needed to find out what is good or bad and take away whichever you want. stopping bad habits is usually better.
according to the psychological services pamphlet, Bev Muse does personal counseling. it states "the services offer short term individual counciling to students to explore personal concerns and make positive changes." Bev frequently said the services promote confidentiality, are confidential, are not shared with anyone, and will not even say hi to you if you do not want her to, for fear of others seeing that you know her. 40% of students get depressed or anxious during some part of their college career. this is very general, and probably is meant to be general and to make people comfortable with using the services. but, it does not matter much when the student uses the services or how much as them using it at all. only using the services would matter. someone thinking "nobody else uses it" could be refuted by any of that 40% saying "i did."
as for how Bev said people sometimes think " dont you have to be crazy to seek psychological counseling" i would like to say in capital letters, PEOPLE NEED TO BE FUCKING NORMAL TO SEE A COUNSELOR OR PSYCHOLOGIST, AND ARE CRAZY IF THEY ARE SENT TO A HOSPITAL OR PRISON FOR ATTEMPTING TO HURT THEMSELVES OR OTHERS, OR HAVE AN INABILITY TO CONTROL THEIR ACTIONS. that is what crazy is. talking to people about feelings or reasons for action are necessary for a healthy relationship or healthy mind. talking to people about this is called counseling. if a person is trained in understanding thought processes and how to respond to certain thoughts effectively, they are then called a psychologist. people are miseducated about what counseling and psychological therapy are. i would like to generalize more and say that people are stupid. they stick to their favorite topics and learn only about that narrow field and field of though.
Bev said the standard of... uhh, im wrong. she said call these numbers etc..., if you just broke up a relationship you have, since those times are usually mixed with alcohol and you do not have proper judgement.
again, Bev is a MFT. Marriage family therapist. it was easy for her to listen to people her whole life. she is not a LCSW, licensed clinical social worker, psychologist, or psychiatrist.
i think that some of what she said was a waste of time because she was repetitive, and i think her speech was directed towards people who are afraid of counseling. she has good meaning. the purpose of the services are good and what she does works well, but nothing struck my mind out of what she said. 


Thursday, February 11, 2010

what do i do online?... i believe the vacuum feeling comes from depression. it is triggered by a loss in meaning. my unconscious mind is fed up with playing games and doing crappy shit every day. i need to define my future meaning.=======once again it seems like- on facebook there is a connection that i feel that others do not. i have a different pattern for feeling like i know someone.
Cosmic Gate
Exploration Of Space
Rush -darude
Music

old- dad loves lookinga t what im doing. its really annoying. its the price i play for doing nothing. voot. its the only thing that i am thinking now. i ahve a one track mind and it is being used.

I NEED TO PRACTICE LOOKING FOR JOBS.
it seems that wound healing expands. if a chunk is cut out, then the body grows extra to fill in the hole. even if there is no hole, there will be extra flesh grown.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

i stopped exercising agiain. i need something more to keep me going for more than a month. i might have lasted 2 weeks. keep telling myself that if i dont exercise there will be lots of health problems. cardiac arrest, high blood pressure, bad sleep.
allong with this, i have had the thought to stop playing video games. reasons are- i waste my whole fucking day playing them. -my mind slows down when i just play them for months on end. i have lost the ideas i have had because all i do is play games
i started again.

8200 block of Skyline Blvd, near the 5-way intersection of Skyline Blvd, Shepherd Canyon, Pinehurst and Manzanita roads. Ed died on Sunday, July 30th, at 4:30am in Highland Hospital, never regaining consciousness.
this was not on skyline

i would like to make a double car where the front ends of two cars are welded to eachother so there are 4 wheels that could turn

Monday, February 8, 2010

library

im here. theres a new development. some kid likes to watch me play games. its annoying. his mom doesnt give him an account to play games with. he gets mad then. hes completely addicted. it looks like a pairing of personality attributes.

hotaru in naruto is hot

aslo. what kind of memory is it that keeps certain events in your mind. for example: jerry jackson and the bumhole finger, dicks out everywhere, punching the retard in the face.

what would or should or do i think i could do to someone whos an asshole. like a kid or an adult. dunno which matters. maybe i can be an asshole. sounds like fun

there was the feeling i had. the best and worst feeling. it was- i was bored of playing desktop defense games. but i distracted myself more and now im all better... =(

theres a high schooler that has huge tits. i love huge tits. and theres some high schoolers next to me. i am really interested for some reason to them. maybe i wish i was in high school. dunno.
music positive vibe trance remix by akopa

Thursday, February 4, 2010

wasted time. attempt to classify my actions

i think [buijob] is achieveable by me. my mind is not part of reality. my thoughts do not convert to reality. i do not promote action. im just happy with what i "think" i could get or do without doing it. i have not logically followed through with waht i have thought.. stupid fucking buijob.
how can i get around all of the time that i waste?
once again, my short attention span does not help me complete this task. im 5 minutes into thinking and now i stop and want to do something else.

she said that i could just let her know when i get things together.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

edit

nooooooo, i didnt upload the right picture. maybe its gone. IT IS GONE GAWN NOOOOOO

. And, according to a report from the National Bureau of Economic Research, the lifetime income of high-school dropouts is directly associated with their scores on a battery of intelligence tests.
FORBES "FIVE REASONS TO SKIP COLLEGE"
bullshit
1. You'll be losing four working years.
2. You won't necessarily earn less money.
3. In fact, you could probably make more money if you invested your tuition.
4. You don't need to be in a classroom in order to learn something.
5. Plenty of other people did fine



Tuesday, January 26, 2010

feel

i am withdrawn. what can i do?
stop and think
play games

both wait it out

here is the start of my career of trying to make a stupid impression on all of the youtube crowd of myself.

i just farted while listening to music. i thought nobody could hear, but it was only me that couldnt because i was playing loud music. sucks for me

still playing td on facebook now. seems like facebook could take over internet game sites.
hope i didnt lose the song before this.
BLAKE LEWIS - HEARTBREAK ON VINYL (BIMBO JONES RADIO EDIT) [3:39] - Heartbreak on Vinyl [The Remixes] (MP3 Maxi-Single)

jesus christ this game is boring yet i still play it and i accomplish nothing with myself. and then i would think i could escape reality playing games, but socialness is unavoidable people are unavoidable. its not that i want to be alone, but i have nothing to focus on. and nothing that can be focused on. i am passing myself with time. it is also not that i do not like people, humans, friends,, but i want to withdraw for now. for the next couple of days. [that is what i say but i]

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

another pessamistic post.

wtf is this shit?






i laugh. the memories from this library are negative. i came here to sleep allong with after taking classes i didnt like. i hated this place then, without thinking about it.

now about now. does typing what i think matter? i think no.

skyline has a myriad of african americans. too many for me. not the attractive ones either.

make another do list?
sow jacket.
sow everyting
get new phone.
print my birthdays newspaper